I got pregnant by my boyfriend of two years when we were 20. We were terrified, hopeless, heartbroken, overwhelmed w/fear that our families would kill us. We had to undo what was already done, and FAST. "So we did what we did and we tried to forget."
Words can never do justice for the feelings I had as I laid on that cold table of February 14th, VALENTINE'S DAY. It was as if nothing had ever happened and we were relieved. It wasn't until the time of my due date that the feelings I had repressed ripped through me like a tornado. I quickly spiraled from regretful and depressed to suicide in the course of one weekend.
"Well you do what you do and you pay for your sins
And there’s no such thing as what might’ve been
That’s a waste of time
Drive you outta your mind"
Nothing will ever fill the endless black hole in me. I'm never going to be whole again... I did a terrible and repulsive thing and I'm digusted by the terrible person I think I am.
I got pregnant by my boyfriend of two years when we were 20. We were terrified, hopeless, heartbroken, overwhelmed w/fear that our families would kill us. We had to undo what was already done, and FAST. "So we did what we did and we tried to forget." Words can never do justice for the feelings I had as I laid on that cold table of February 14th, VALENTINE'S DAY. It was as if nothing had ever happened and we were relieved. It wasn't until the time of my due date that the feelings I had repressed ripped through me like a tornado. I quickly spiraled from regretful and depressed to suicide in the course of one weekend.
"Well you do what you do and you pay for your sins And there’s no such thing as what might’ve been That’s a waste of time Drive you outta your mind"
Nothing will ever fill the endless black hole in me. I'm never going to be whole again... I did a terrible and repulsive thing and I'm digusted by the terrible person I think I am.