The 'I' in the song appears to at the same time enjoy the pain left behind from a girl (either death or failed relationship) and also hates its presence because it reminds him (I'm assuming it's a him) of her in the first place. The pain - the disdain - is both pleasure and pain to him.
The 'I' in the song appears to at the same time enjoy the pain left behind from a girl (either death or failed relationship) and also hates its presence because it reminds him (I'm assuming it's a him) of her in the first place. The pain - the disdain - is both pleasure and pain to him.