"As to why she'd feel this way, I think something happened to her. After people blame you for things you didn't do, label you wrongfully, or talk about you, you tend to get to wondering why the hell you're trying so hard to go against what everyone believes after this has been going on for so long, and you know it's not going to change."
I don't understand completely what you're saying here, but it made me come up with this; what if she's trying so hard to be a "good girl" but nobody seems to notice. They all expect her to do wrong and let them down just like someone else did before. So, she finally just says "fuck it, they think I'm doing wrong, so why even try to prove them wrong anymore? I'm just gonna' do what I want because people will always see me the same - because of my mistakes, not what I'm doing right."
"As to why she'd feel this way, I think something happened to her. After people blame you for things you didn't do, label you wrongfully, or talk about you, you tend to get to wondering why the hell you're trying so hard to go against what everyone believes after this has been going on for so long, and you know it's not going to change."
I don't understand completely what you're saying here, but it made me come up with this; what if she's trying so hard to be a "good girl" but nobody seems to notice. They all expect her to do wrong and let them down just like someone else did before. So, she finally just says "fuck it, they think I'm doing wrong, so why even try to prove them wrong anymore? I'm just gonna' do what I want because people will always see me the same - because of my mistakes, not what I'm doing right."