This song is about her yearning for a meaningful relationship, but finding shallowness instead. It seems that she comes close at times, but figures out a way of screwing it up.
"I came home in the morning and everything was gone oh, what have I done!"
Her husband/boyfriend left her because she was unfaithful and she feels regret.
"got kicked in the head, so I started a fight 'cause I knew I was right, but I learned I was wrong"
Her stubborn, head-strong ways led to her walking out after an argument instead of staying and dealing with it. This likely led to her indiscretion, which led to the break up.
Unlike the one-night stand, this was a real relationship, but she threw it away....then she goes back to the one-night stand guy, or some other guy, with whom she's really not in love, because of a false sense of security in this physical relationship.
"a lady in need is guilty indeed so i paid and got laid in return"
Her desire to in a relationship is what she means by "lady in need." But, she's just jumping from one relationship to another without addressing her problems.
The lesson cost her ("I paid") and now she's in a meaningless relationship ("and got laid in return") with her next boyfriend who picked her up when she was down, but for whom she has no real love.
She knows better, but keeps getting stuck in this cycle. She "lives" but she doesn't "learn" from her mistakes. The reference to looking into the sun could mean her trying to come to terms with her issues, i.e. spiritual/religious enlightenment, counseling, etc, but it doesn't seem to help because she gets "blistered and burned" and doesn't "learn".
In summary, she's being hard on herself because she has a history of screwing up good relationships and falling back into bad ones. But, mistakes are a part of life. And, that she wrote this song is a step in the right direction. This song will resonate with many single women over 30.
This song is about her yearning for a meaningful relationship, but finding shallowness instead. It seems that she comes close at times, but figures out a way of screwing it up.
"I came home in the morning and everything was gone oh, what have I done!"
Her husband/boyfriend left her because she was unfaithful and she feels regret.
"got kicked in the head, so I started a fight 'cause I knew I was right, but I learned I was wrong"
Her stubborn, head-strong ways led to her walking out after an argument instead of staying and dealing with it. This likely led to her indiscretion, which led to the break up.
Unlike the one-night stand, this was a real relationship, but she threw it away....then she goes back to the one-night stand guy, or some other guy, with whom she's really not in love, because of a false sense of security in this physical relationship.
"a lady in need is guilty indeed so i paid and got laid in return"
Her desire to in a relationship is what she means by "lady in need." But, she's just jumping from one relationship to another without addressing her problems.
The lesson cost her ("I paid") and now she's in a meaningless relationship ("and got laid in return") with her next boyfriend who picked her up when she was down, but for whom she has no real love.
She knows better, but keeps getting stuck in this cycle. She "lives" but she doesn't "learn" from her mistakes. The reference to looking into the sun could mean her trying to come to terms with her issues, i.e. spiritual/religious enlightenment, counseling, etc, but it doesn't seem to help because she gets "blistered and burned" and doesn't "learn".
In summary, she's being hard on herself because she has a history of screwing up good relationships and falling back into bad ones. But, mistakes are a part of life. And, that she wrote this song is a step in the right direction. This song will resonate with many single women over 30.