Yes, the song's about what her love cost HIM, not that he lost her love. There's nothing indicating that he's lost her. He's fearful, yes, of parting with the feeling that's caught him by surprise--two men (the man inside), one steals the love, the other hides. He was betting he was getting her love for free, that he could remain aloof to love for her. He awakes one morning, still, afraid to wake her, dealing with his own realization that he loves her when he really wasn't planning on that happening. He's fearful she will see him for who he may really be, or not be, but he does not want her to see his love for her written all over his face. He is fearful of this heart transaction, and wants to have her love on loan only, to be able to keep his own heart in order to protect it from hurt. I think the most telling stanza includes "can we call it a loan/Till I'm paid in full for the seeds I've sown" which indicates he feels undeserving of love based on his past withholding of it in other relationships. He used women in the past, and now he's fallen in love unexpectedly, and feeling the feeling that will be hard to part with, he wants to grow to be worthy of the full trade. His heart's not worthy, not equal, but he's willing to grow toward worthiness.
Yes, the song's about what her love cost HIM, not that he lost her love. There's nothing indicating that he's lost her. He's fearful, yes, of parting with the feeling that's caught him by surprise--two men (the man inside), one steals the love, the other hides. He was betting he was getting her love for free, that he could remain aloof to love for her. He awakes one morning, still, afraid to wake her, dealing with his own realization that he loves her when he really wasn't planning on that happening. He's fearful she will see him for who he may really be, or not be, but he does not want her to see his love for her written all over his face. He is fearful of this heart transaction, and wants to have her love on loan only, to be able to keep his own heart in order to protect it from hurt. I think the most telling stanza includes "can we call it a loan/Till I'm paid in full for the seeds I've sown" which indicates he feels undeserving of love based on his past withholding of it in other relationships. He used women in the past, and now he's fallen in love unexpectedly, and feeling the feeling that will be hard to part with, he wants to grow to be worthy of the full trade. His heart's not worthy, not equal, but he's willing to grow toward worthiness.
@jamiescryin Yes, that's it. You said it so well. Thank you.
@jamiescryin Yes, that's it. You said it so well. Thank you.