It's about drug addiction, or addiction to something that can be compared to drugs in a way that it's probably unhealthy for you mentally or physically, and it's habitual. He's trying to decide whether to fight it or just let his addiction take him wherever it will, leading eventually to death.
It's about drug addiction, or addiction to something that can be compared to drugs in a way that it's probably unhealthy for you mentally or physically, and it's habitual. He's trying to decide whether to fight it or just let his addiction take him wherever it will, leading eventually to death.