This song is very personal to Ayu.
I think it relates a lot to her childhood and the stages before she became a star (when she refers to the future).
I think Ayu is referring to being so alone because her mother never showed much interest in her life, she never met her father, and her grandmother whom she was very close to died on the day of her first recorded song, poker face, which is also on the A Song For XX album.
This song is very personal to Ayu. I think it relates a lot to her childhood and the stages before she became a star (when she refers to the future). I think Ayu is referring to being so alone because her mother never showed much interest in her life, she never met her father, and her grandmother whom she was very close to died on the day of her first recorded song, poker face, which is also on the A Song For XX album.