My identity crises in Soph. year
"Im your...dreams of glass"-->Me wishing that I could express myself better (I worked on that! It's all gooooood!)
"So save...need 'em"--> Me losing my faith in God
"Throw all your...for a ride?"-->I was a top grade student. I wished I could let myself go for a ride many times.
"She's the one for me..."--> my great dependecy on my best friends and my love for them, esp my bff that got sick.
"Emptiness..just like me"-->As things never seemed to get better with my bff, things got worse for me. I gave up God completely and have never since felt connection to God.
"Intoxicated...my sadness"-->I withdrew into myself. I became very depressed. I couldnt focus in school. I couldnt associate with anyone. I was cutting myself and tearing at my skin to numb anxiety. I continuously imagined dying. I knew I was killing myself, but it was the only thing I could feel.
"bullshit fakers...teeth"-->Me rejecting the society around me and all the people in it.
"I never let on...that I was down"-->I didnt share my feelings and thoughts with anyone--not even the my best friends that I would've died for. And I know that I never will tell my bffs.
"You blame...ignore"-->Me blaming myself for not loving my sick bff more. I blamed myself for her suicide attempts. I blamed myself for the fact that she is still not in school. I blamed myself for being anrgy with her that she would hurt me so much.
"You blame...wanting more"-->Recently, I stopped blaming myself for these things. But I began to blame myself for wanting different friends that would hurt me and suffocate me so much. I blamed myself for beginning the break of a friendship circle.
"She's the one...and only"--> How I bitterly think of all the ways my depression has really been caused by my bffs depression. We have been so close and so bonded, that I actually take on her sickness. It makes me think of how I must live for myself.
And, just so yall no! I dont cut myself anymore and I am living very happily. Tho I spend a lot less time with my circle of friends, I am much happier and looking forward to graduation and art school! Love to all of you... SMASHING PUMPKINS FOREVER!!!!">
Zero Meanings & Lyrics Discussion by rainofheart | SongMeanings
My identity crises in Soph. year
"Im your...dreams of glass"-->Me wishing that I could express myself better (I worked on that! It's all gooooood!)
"So save...need 'em"--> Me losing my faith in God
"Throw all your...for a ride?"-->I was a top grade student. I wished I could let myself go for a ride many times.
"She's the one for me..."--> my great dependecy on my best friends and my love for them, esp my bff that got sick.
"Emptiness..just like me"-->As things never seemed to get better with my bff, things got worse for me. I gave up God completely and have never since felt connection to God.
"Intoxicated...my sadness"-->I withdrew into myself. I became very depressed. I couldnt focus in school. I couldnt associate with anyone. I was cutting myself and tearing at my skin to numb anxiety. I continuously imagined dying. I knew I was killing myself, but it was the only thing I could feel.
"bullshit fakers...teeth"-->Me rejecting the society around me and all the people in it.
"I never let on...that I was down"-->I didnt share my feelings and thoughts with anyone--not even the my best friends that I would've died for. And I know that I never will tell my bffs.
"You blame...ignore"-->Me blaming myself for not loving my sick bff more. I blamed myself for her suicide attempts. I blamed myself for the fact that she is still not in school. I blamed myself for being anrgy with her that she would hurt me so much.
"You blame...wanting more"-->Recently, I stopped blaming myself for these things. But I began to blame myself for wanting different friends that would hurt me and suffocate me so much. I blamed myself for beginning the break of a friendship circle.
"She's the one...and only"--> How I bitterly think of all the ways my depression has really been caused by my bffs depression. We have been so close and so bonded, that I actually take on her sickness. It makes me think of how I must live for myself.
And, just so yall no! I dont cut myself anymore and I am living very happily. Tho I spend a lot less time with my circle of friends, I am much happier and looking forward to graduation and art school! Love to all of you... SMASHING PUMPKINS FOREVER!!!!" />
This song DEFINES every point of my highschool grievances!! It's amazing how one song could do it all! I have been struggling for 2.5 years with on-&-off depression--you know, normal teenage depression. It became increasingly worse when my best friend was diagnosed with the REAL bad depression. She pulled out of school almost one year ago.
"My reflection, dirty...to myself"-->My identity crises in Soph. year
"Im your...dreams of glass"-->Me wishing that I could express myself better (I worked on that! It's all gooooood!)
"So save...need 'em"--> Me losing my faith in God
"Throw all your...for a ride?"-->I was a top grade student. I wished I could let myself go for a ride many times.
"She's the one for me..."--> my great dependecy on my best friends and my love for them, esp my bff that got sick.
"Emptiness..just like me"-->As things never seemed to get better with my bff, things got worse for me. I gave up God completely and have never since felt connection to God.
"Intoxicated...my sadness"-->I withdrew into myself. I became very depressed. I couldnt focus in school. I couldnt associate with anyone. I was cutting myself and tearing at my skin to numb anxiety. I continuously imagined dying. I knew I was killing myself, but it was the only thing I could feel.
"bullshit fakers...teeth"-->Me rejecting the society around me and all the people in it.
"I never let on...that I was down"-->I didnt share my feelings and thoughts with anyone--not even the my best friends that I would've died for. And I know that I never will tell my bffs.
"You blame...ignore"-->Me blaming myself for not loving my sick bff more. I blamed myself for her suicide attempts. I blamed myself for the fact that she is still not in school. I blamed myself for being anrgy with her that she would hurt me so much.
"You blame...wanting more"-->Recently, I stopped blaming myself for these things. But I began to blame myself for wanting different friends that would hurt me and suffocate me so much. I blamed myself for beginning the break of a friendship circle.
"She's the one...and only"--> How I bitterly think of all the ways my depression has really been caused by my bffs depression. We have been so close and so bonded, that I actually take on her sickness. It makes me think of how I must live for myself.
And, just so yall no! I dont cut myself anymore and I am living very happily. Tho I spend a lot less time with my circle of friends, I am much happier and looking forward to graduation and art school! Love to all of you... SMASHING PUMPKINS FOREVER!!!!
This song DEFINES every point of my highschool grievances!! It's amazing how one song could do it all! I have been struggling for 2.5 years with on-&-off depression--you know, normal teenage depression. It became increasingly worse when my best friend was diagnosed with the REAL bad depression. She pulled out of school almost one year ago.
"My reflection, dirty...to myself"-->My identity crises in Soph. year "Im your...dreams of glass"-->Me wishing that I could express myself better (I worked on that! It's all gooooood!) "So save...need 'em"--> Me losing my faith in God "Throw all your...for a ride?"-->I was a top grade student. I wished I could let myself go for a ride many times. "She's the one for me..."--> my great dependecy on my best friends and my love for them, esp my bff that got sick. "Emptiness..just like me"-->As things never seemed to get better with my bff, things got worse for me. I gave up God completely and have never since felt connection to God. "Intoxicated...my sadness"-->I withdrew into myself. I became very depressed. I couldnt focus in school. I couldnt associate with anyone. I was cutting myself and tearing at my skin to numb anxiety. I continuously imagined dying. I knew I was killing myself, but it was the only thing I could feel. "bullshit fakers...teeth"-->Me rejecting the society around me and all the people in it. "I never let on...that I was down"-->I didnt share my feelings and thoughts with anyone--not even the my best friends that I would've died for. And I know that I never will tell my bffs. "You blame...ignore"-->Me blaming myself for not loving my sick bff more. I blamed myself for her suicide attempts. I blamed myself for the fact that she is still not in school. I blamed myself for being anrgy with her that she would hurt me so much. "You blame...wanting more"-->Recently, I stopped blaming myself for these things. But I began to blame myself for wanting different friends that would hurt me and suffocate me so much. I blamed myself for beginning the break of a friendship circle. "She's the one...and only"--> How I bitterly think of all the ways my depression has really been caused by my bffs depression. We have been so close and so bonded, that I actually take on her sickness. It makes me think of how I must live for myself.
And, just so yall no! I dont cut myself anymore and I am living very happily. Tho I spend a lot less time with my circle of friends, I am much happier and looking forward to graduation and art school! Love to all of you... SMASHING PUMPKINS FOREVER!!!!