It's so easy to relate to. He figures that after hard times in his life, it's easier to blame luck and fate than to actually be held accountable for his actions. He wonders if finally realizing that your life is meaningless will drive you to make improvements, or just lead you to dying too early. While running away from his problems was a quick fix, it also left his dignity and everything else behind. Now that he knows it's no good, he's determined to find a way to get himself out of the mess. Now that he's older, he knows that he'd give anything to be in the position he used to be in, before he experienced any of his firsts.
Maybe my favorite song on the record.
It's so easy to relate to. He figures that after hard times in his life, it's easier to blame luck and fate than to actually be held accountable for his actions. He wonders if finally realizing that your life is meaningless will drive you to make improvements, or just lead you to dying too early. While running away from his problems was a quick fix, it also left his dignity and everything else behind. Now that he knows it's no good, he's determined to find a way to get himself out of the mess. Now that he's older, he knows that he'd give anything to be in the position he used to be in, before he experienced any of his firsts.