As part of the concept album Fire Garden, and Real Illusions as well, (these two, and in the future, more, albums ARE connected, Vai said so himself) I can't interperet this song, as Real Illusions isn't finished yet, the story is in pieces, not in order either.
But as a stand alone song, I think the narrator is singing about HIMSELF, and how the choices that he makes are annoying him. He wishes he didn't act or be the way he is. "I notice you're happy only when you're miserable..." and "my mind is better off dead."
As part of the concept album Fire Garden, and Real Illusions as well, (these two, and in the future, more, albums ARE connected, Vai said so himself) I can't interperet this song, as Real Illusions isn't finished yet, the story is in pieces, not in order either.
But as a stand alone song, I think the narrator is singing about HIMSELF, and how the choices that he makes are annoying him. He wishes he didn't act or be the way he is. "I notice you're happy only when you're miserable..." and "my mind is better off dead."