I think that you are supposed to take note of the fact that he is killing himself, rather than the device used to instrument such an act. It seems that he is already regretting his plot of suicide, and is extremely hesitant as to the actual act, but knows that there is no other escape.
I think that you are supposed to take note of the fact that he is killing himself, rather than the device used to instrument such an act. It seems that he is already regretting his plot of suicide, and is extremely hesitant as to the actual act, but knows that there is no other escape.