And after reading the book "invisible monsters" the song makes alot more sense. However, I don't believe that the lyricist is writing and describing the book, but how he, himself, fits into the character's persona.
"it’s hard to believe
i cannot exist without you
as hard as i’ve tried
i cannot confess completely
these words will lament you
and do sorts of likewise behavior
it’s just part of the curse
i’m just trying to stay alive"
It's kind of funny that the main character, Shannon, can only communicate herself through a pen and paper due to her jaw being blown off, maybe he feels writing is the only way to completely express how he feels.
"are you out there
are you listening at all
are you out there
are you listening
to anything i’ve said"
Summed up in the line from the book "Nobody gets noticed, not anymore"
"it’s hard to admit
my weaknesses can consume me
i search for the cure
in the bottles of buried volumes
the joke of it is
i express myself without purpose
yet you devour my smallness
the madness to make believe"
In the book, Shannon & co steal perscription painkillers and such from upscale houses that are for sale, to differentiate between the medications she has a giant hand book in her possesion. I think he may see himself comparable with shannon because maybe he has/had a problem with some kind of substance.
"if i can pretend, i don’t depend
i can deny, deny, denial
yet when push comes to shove
and all the above
i decide to live the lie"
I'm sorry, I misread the lyrics.
And after reading the book "invisible monsters" the song makes alot more sense. However, I don't believe that the lyricist is writing and describing the book, but how he, himself, fits into the character's persona.
"it’s hard to believe i cannot exist without you as hard as i’ve tried i cannot confess completely these words will lament you and do sorts of likewise behavior it’s just part of the curse i’m just trying to stay alive"
It's kind of funny that the main character, Shannon, can only communicate herself through a pen and paper due to her jaw being blown off, maybe he feels writing is the only way to completely express how he feels.
"are you out there are you listening at all are you out there are you listening to anything i’ve said"
Summed up in the line from the book "Nobody gets noticed, not anymore"
"it’s hard to admit my weaknesses can consume me i search for the cure in the bottles of buried volumes the joke of it is i express myself without purpose yet you devour my smallness the madness to make believe"
In the book, Shannon & co steal perscription painkillers and such from upscale houses that are for sale, to differentiate between the medications she has a giant hand book in her possesion. I think he may see himself comparable with shannon because maybe he has/had a problem with some kind of substance.
"if i can pretend, i don’t depend i can deny, deny, denial yet when push comes to shove and all the above i decide to live the lie"
I think it means what it says here.