like one of the previous posters, i think it's about incest. her father. she says that she dropped her last name, fodera, because she isn't fond of the person it belongs to. and these lines:
we hide in the cupboards
and under the stairs
see something that's nothing
and then start to cry
you made me
i am a part of you
i liked you once (until you started abusing me, maybe?)
we look like each other
sew you to my chest
then say that i won't
faithfully, as i fuck all the rest (the whole thing, like how fathers get all protective of their "little girls" when they get old enough to start having boyfriends and stuff. and the possessiveness that comes with incest, "no-one will ever love you as much as i do, and i'm going to prove it to you by having sex with you." but then the girl rebels and has lots of casual sex with people she doesn't care about because she's so messed up from the abuse.)
i don't want this
i want this
i don't want this
i want this (understandable confusion...)
no clue what it means, but i love this line anyway:
now this is probably totally weird of me to think. but has anyone read marilyn manson's autobiography, the long hard road out of hell? as you probably know if you're a spooky kids/jack off jill fan, manson was pretty involved with the beginning of jessicka's band. and in that book, he catches his grandfather masturbating, "i turned my head away, too late to keep from imagining the white pus squeezing out of his yellow, wrinkled penis like the insides of a squashed cockroach." ok, TECHNICALLY he's comparing the SEMEN to cockroach GUTS, not the actual penis to a cockroach. but still, it makes me think of that, "cockroach will rise" and i'll leave that to your imagination...and then whole situation blows up, "crashes, burns." like that other line, see something that's nothing/and then start to cry. like a family member maybe saw something suspicous and they tried to convince themselves it was nothing.
like one of the previous posters, i think it's about incest. her father. she says that she dropped her last name, fodera, because she isn't fond of the person it belongs to. and these lines:
we hide in the cupboards and under the stairs
see something that's nothing and then start to cry
you made me i am a part of you
i liked you once (until you started abusing me, maybe?)
we look like each other sew you to my chest then say that i won't faithfully, as i fuck all the rest (the whole thing, like how fathers get all protective of their "little girls" when they get old enough to start having boyfriends and stuff. and the possessiveness that comes with incest, "no-one will ever love you as much as i do, and i'm going to prove it to you by having sex with you." but then the girl rebels and has lots of casual sex with people she doesn't care about because she's so messed up from the abuse.)
i don't want this i want this i don't want this i want this (understandable confusion...)
no clue what it means, but i love this line anyway:
help-me-shut-out-pain-ful-world when-in-sect-boy-be-comes-a-girl
this line. oh dear.
cockroach will rise, will crash, will burn
now this is probably totally weird of me to think. but has anyone read marilyn manson's autobiography, the long hard road out of hell? as you probably know if you're a spooky kids/jack off jill fan, manson was pretty involved with the beginning of jessicka's band. and in that book, he catches his grandfather masturbating, "i turned my head away, too late to keep from imagining the white pus squeezing out of his yellow, wrinkled penis like the insides of a squashed cockroach." ok, TECHNICALLY he's comparing the SEMEN to cockroach GUTS, not the actual penis to a cockroach. but still, it makes me think of that, "cockroach will rise" and i'll leave that to your imagination...and then whole situation blows up, "crashes, burns." like that other line, see something that's nothing/and then start to cry. like a family member maybe saw something suspicous and they tried to convince themselves it was nothing.
anyway. it's a great song, one of their best.