I think it's about finding God, the good things like being released from "the things that made me shit scared" but also the bad things like knowing that "in the night [I'll fail at upholding you]" and losing the happy things. Obviously the brackets is my interpretation, what I think he's implying.
It sounds like he's sacrificing his happyness in order to be saved, so to people who's only desire is to be happy, this song will appear to be anti-christian (I'm assuming it's that God!), but I think he'd rather have God than happyness, so this is like a worship song, saying "God, I'm trying to live for you, but this is really hard cos my life without you was better in some ways, so I'll try and concentrate on how you've made it better".
I only have vertigo of bliss, so I can't speak for part 2
I think it's about finding God, the good things like being released from "the things that made me shit scared" but also the bad things like knowing that "in the night [I'll fail at upholding you]" and losing the happy things. Obviously the brackets is my interpretation, what I think he's implying. It sounds like he's sacrificing his happyness in order to be saved, so to people who's only desire is to be happy, this song will appear to be anti-christian (I'm assuming it's that God!), but I think he'd rather have God than happyness, so this is like a worship song, saying "God, I'm trying to live for you, but this is really hard cos my life without you was better in some ways, so I'll try and concentrate on how you've made it better". I only have vertigo of bliss, so I can't speak for part 2