The abortion theory works, but I think this really fits part of my life as well (no, i've never gotten an abortion and don't plan on it >_> ). Like.. I'll explain.
" I'm trying to put this thing to bed
I drugged it in it's sleep
There isn't many memories I'm comfortable to keep "
Here I am, trying to call off a situation in which I'm in love with a friend of mine but who I know wouldn't have me over everything else. Drugging it in it's sleep could mean trying to forget it when I'm unconcious, but it'll only come back to haunt me when I wake up. And even when I'm not awake, I have dreams taunting me with things I know aren't possible right now.
"This ball keeps rolling on
It's heading for the street
Keep expecting you to send for me
Tte invitation never comes"
The ball heading into the street represents a path to destruction.. I know seeing him fall for everybody except for me can't be healthy, but I can't stop caring about him either way. I long for the day he'll just want to see 'me', over a variety of other choices.. but he hasn't deemed me close enough for that yet, or he may just remain uninterested..
"Each time I turn around
There's nothing there at all
So tell me why I feel like
I'm up against a wall"
I've felt like maybe, if I looked behind me, he'd actually be there waiting someday. But again, he hasn't, and it makes me feel restrained, like there's nothing I can do to break out of how I feel, that perhaps all my efforts are futile.
"But maybe it's a false alarm
And every answer sounds the same
Just colours bleeding into one that hasn't got a name
Maybe I can't see
Maybe it's just me"
And there are times when it almost seems like I -am- the only thing that matters in his mind, but then I realize it's only temporary. "Every answer sounds the same", whatever we talk about will always end with him running off to somebody else.. The colors part, that's the one that confuses me greatly.. o_o; I suppose I'll get back to it later..
And maybe I'm the one imagining it all, over the past year that we've seemed to gain a better friendship and understanding of one another, some days it's almost like we've just met. And that may be. Maybe it's just me..?
'Just colours bleeding into one that hasn't got a name'
I think this is metaphorical: Colours could represent (mixed) emotions, like sadness, anger, confusion, grief, longing and recollection, that cycle around until they become a kind of unified state of mind that's hard to put a label on.
'Just colours bleeding into one that hasn't got a name'
I think this is metaphorical: Colours could represent (mixed) emotions, like sadness, anger, confusion, grief, longing and recollection, that cycle around until they become a kind of unified state of mind that's hard to put a label on.
I think your interpretation of the rest of the song is pretty close to the mark. It reminds me of the aftermath of a painful breakup, trying to come to terms with it, and to cope.
I think your interpretation of the rest of the song is pretty close to the mark. It reminds me of the aftermath of a painful breakup, trying to come to terms with it, and to cope.
Favorite song by KT Tunstall.. Lovely, really.
The abortion theory works, but I think this really fits part of my life as well (no, i've never gotten an abortion and don't plan on it >_> ). Like.. I'll explain.
" I'm trying to put this thing to bed I drugged it in it's sleep There isn't many memories I'm comfortable to keep "
Here I am, trying to call off a situation in which I'm in love with a friend of mine but who I know wouldn't have me over everything else. Drugging it in it's sleep could mean trying to forget it when I'm unconcious, but it'll only come back to haunt me when I wake up. And even when I'm not awake, I have dreams taunting me with things I know aren't possible right now.
"This ball keeps rolling on It's heading for the street Keep expecting you to send for me Tte invitation never comes"
The ball heading into the street represents a path to destruction.. I know seeing him fall for everybody except for me can't be healthy, but I can't stop caring about him either way. I long for the day he'll just want to see 'me', over a variety of other choices.. but he hasn't deemed me close enough for that yet, or he may just remain uninterested..
"Each time I turn around There's nothing there at all So tell me why I feel like I'm up against a wall"
I've felt like maybe, if I looked behind me, he'd actually be there waiting someday. But again, he hasn't, and it makes me feel restrained, like there's nothing I can do to break out of how I feel, that perhaps all my efforts are futile.
"But maybe it's a false alarm And every answer sounds the same Just colours bleeding into one that hasn't got a name Maybe I can't see Maybe it's just me"
And there are times when it almost seems like I -am- the only thing that matters in his mind, but then I realize it's only temporary. "Every answer sounds the same", whatever we talk about will always end with him running off to somebody else.. The colors part, that's the one that confuses me greatly.. o_o; I suppose I'll get back to it later..
And maybe I'm the one imagining it all, over the past year that we've seemed to gain a better friendship and understanding of one another, some days it's almost like we've just met. And that may be. Maybe it's just me..?
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@shikonaori
'Just colours bleeding into one that hasn't got a name' I think this is metaphorical: Colours could represent (mixed) emotions, like sadness, anger, confusion, grief, longing and recollection, that cycle around until they become a kind of unified state of mind that's hard to put a label on.
'Just colours bleeding into one that hasn't got a name' I think this is metaphorical: Colours could represent (mixed) emotions, like sadness, anger, confusion, grief, longing and recollection, that cycle around until they become a kind of unified state of mind that's hard to put a label on.
I think your interpretation of the rest of the song is pretty close to the mark. It reminds me of the aftermath of a painful breakup, trying to come to terms with it, and to cope.
I think your interpretation of the rest of the song is pretty close to the mark. It reminds me of the aftermath of a painful breakup, trying to come to terms with it, and to cope.