To me this song is about rape. I was a victim of sexual abuse for many years (age 3 to 16) and that distanced me from my family because that was where it all took place, but when my older sister had a baby I realised that I wanted to be a part of it. So I "came home for christmas", I returned to my roots and decided to love my parents and my sisters no matter how much I wish they'd been able to protect me from my much older brother's abuse.
This song to me kind of expresses how my boy- and girlfriends through the years have felt when I've explained, how they've been forced to realize that the scars won't ever disappear totally and I still feel very insecure about my sexuality and how to express it. My longest relationship was with a guy I met when I was fifteen, I didn't tell him anything until after two years (yes, I was his girlfriend during the last years of abuse), and when I did tell him he asked himself all these questions. He couldn't believe that we'd had sex sometimes the same day I was abused, and he never really got over the fact that him and I had sex though I really wasn't ready and didn't want to. Anyways, after that relationship I started being more open about these issues, now I know how to say no and I'm not ashamed for what I've been through anymore.
Sorry for writing so much egocentrical stuff but I really felt like telling my story since it's perfect for this song, at least to me. Peace and love, everyone!
To me this song is about rape. I was a victim of sexual abuse for many years (age 3 to 16) and that distanced me from my family because that was where it all took place, but when my older sister had a baby I realised that I wanted to be a part of it. So I "came home for christmas", I returned to my roots and decided to love my parents and my sisters no matter how much I wish they'd been able to protect me from my much older brother's abuse. This song to me kind of expresses how my boy- and girlfriends through the years have felt when I've explained, how they've been forced to realize that the scars won't ever disappear totally and I still feel very insecure about my sexuality and how to express it. My longest relationship was with a guy I met when I was fifteen, I didn't tell him anything until after two years (yes, I was his girlfriend during the last years of abuse), and when I did tell him he asked himself all these questions. He couldn't believe that we'd had sex sometimes the same day I was abused, and he never really got over the fact that him and I had sex though I really wasn't ready and didn't want to. Anyways, after that relationship I started being more open about these issues, now I know how to say no and I'm not ashamed for what I've been through anymore. Sorry for writing so much egocentrical stuff but I really felt like telling my story since it's perfect for this song, at least to me. Peace and love, everyone!