I seriously doubt that she enjoyed any part of it. I think it's obvious that Otep was severely damaged by the things that happened to her during her childhood. No one enjoys rape or molestation. No one. If they did, it wouldn't be considered that. It would just be sex. I think the "my beloved" refers to the person that hurt her. Which would mean he was obviously some close to her. Many people continue loving and caring about the people that hurt them. That doesn't mean that they like the abuse.
I seriously doubt that she enjoyed any part of it. I think it's obvious that Otep was severely damaged by the things that happened to her during her childhood. No one enjoys rape or molestation. No one. If they did, it wouldn't be considered that. It would just be sex. I think the "my beloved" refers to the person that hurt her. Which would mean he was obviously some close to her. Many people continue loving and caring about the people that hurt them. That doesn't mean that they like the abuse.