This sound to me like he went somewhere (Cairo...) where he could be whoever he wanted and get lost in the moment, but perhaps he didn't feel comfortable losing control, or he didn't feel like the carefree life was enough like what he had always experienced.
This sound to me like he went somewhere (Cairo...) where he could be whoever he wanted and get lost in the moment, but perhaps he didn't feel comfortable losing control, or he didn't feel like the carefree life was enough like what he had always experienced.