Lyric discussion by Abeer 

Just to get by try to stay high it's a good life end of discussion the hours like sand the holes in my hand I'm a good soul, Martyr me

Wasting my life it's passing me by it's a good fight throw in the towel

The hours I've spent aren't enough to pay rent I'm just sinking water deep

But if all I have is defeat

Tonight if you're awake at all

Tonight if you're awake

Tonight if you're awake at all

Tonight if you're awake

Case of my crime: a lack of my time it's a roadblock need a catharsis

Patience is spent; a virtue I sent to the basement far from me

The less that I spend on the mess that I'm in could be used towards something of value The time on my side isn't anything I've ever needed can't you see that all I have is defeat?

Tonight if you're awake at all

Tonight if you're awake

Tonight if you're awake at all

Tonight if you're awake

Every unsuspecting scene when we're supposed to make believe that we're not tearing at the seams...

We hang on, we hang on, we hang on

Tonight if you're awake at all

Tonight if you're awake

Tonight if you're awake at all

Tonight if you're awake

Tonight if you're awake at all

Tonight if you're awake

Tonight if you're awake at all

Tonight if you're awake


i love this song, cause it sounds like a sincere complaint about his own lifestyle.

the holes in my hand: crucifixion reference; ties in with the 'martyr' theme.

pretty much saying how he's just getting by and getting high and being sarcastic on how its a good life. he feels like he's wasting his life...and the whole 'tonight if you're awake at all' sounds like him writing this song about his shitty life and wanting to call his ex/have his ex call him for advice/comfort/validation, whatever...that's why he keeps saying it through the song.

"the less that i spend on the mess that im in could be used towards somethin of value": the less money he has to pay back his debts with could be used towards something he really could use.

but it's not that he needs time - more time won't help - cause all he's always had is defeat, see? he's feeling sorta hopeless here.

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