This is an AWESOME song for me personally and what it means to me.
Since my father died when i was younger i kinda turned into an aggressive person if im being honest. I had tried calming and Basically 2 years ago i was seeing a girl i was really into and i started to change. i acted all nicey, changed how i acted. was more considerate and caring but it never suited me.. i felt.
To cut a long story short my ex-girlfriend never knew or experienced this side of me and she decided to sleep with a guy i knew. One night they approached me in a club when i thought she was at home. holding hands, they told me they were togehter and i was to move out of the flat we shared.(i admit i was in SHOCK but didnt do anythng) Im still pretty sure she didnt know but when i left the club afterwards (drunk and obviosuly down
i got jumped on and punched in the head a few times by somebody and ran off.
So i stopped at a mates and the next day went back to get my stuff and had a little chat with her. She basically told me she liked the bad boy in this guy (the guy had been in prison and was bigger than me).Even though i was bruised etc she didnt seem to show any consideration or care.
All my mates told me she was a slag and told me to leave it but I few days later i saw them together and they rubbed it in my face kissing and he was grinnig like a cheshire cat. I almost instantly turned back into my oldself beat the shit out of him. He was nearly in tears and begged me to get off him and it totally shocked her as she had never seen me like that.
Anyway the guy stayed with her 3 weeks and split up with her. So there is some justice. I saw her about a week ago and her friend told me she was sorry and wanted to go for a drink with me but i declined.
I know it might sound childish and maybe one day ill learn to be more mature. but for these reasons i love the song and every lyric in the song suits that part of my life.
"Yeah its what ive become that i fear the most, I never thought it could get so wrong" - I couldnt beleive i changed everything about myself for her and she walked all over me.
"Judging by the weight of my fucked up world, I think maybe I should take a step back from this
I need to quit pushing, just let it roll" - I couldnt let them continue to walk all over me - afterall i didnt need to be that person for her anymore.
"Yeah, it's what you've become that I took today, You never thought I could be so strong, You can see there's a part of me that you cannot beat, And part of you will always remember me, When you look around and you are so alone" - She thought i wouldnt do a thing nor could i be so strong and she couldnt do a think about it.
"So ill play god know and blow you, blow you away" - reminds me of when i took control and fought out at her him and literally blew her away - as she want expecting it.
Sorry if that was a bit long but thats this songs meaning for me and it rocks because of it. I just wish crossfade had more songs like this.
This is an AWESOME song for me personally and what it means to me.
Since my father died when i was younger i kinda turned into an aggressive person if im being honest. I had tried calming and Basically 2 years ago i was seeing a girl i was really into and i started to change. i acted all nicey, changed how i acted. was more considerate and caring but it never suited me.. i felt.
To cut a long story short my ex-girlfriend never knew or experienced this side of me and she decided to sleep with a guy i knew. One night they approached me in a club when i thought she was at home. holding hands, they told me they were togehter and i was to move out of the flat we shared.(i admit i was in SHOCK but didnt do anythng) Im still pretty sure she didnt know but when i left the club afterwards (drunk and obviosuly down i got jumped on and punched in the head a few times by somebody and ran off.
So i stopped at a mates and the next day went back to get my stuff and had a little chat with her. She basically told me she liked the bad boy in this guy (the guy had been in prison and was bigger than me).Even though i was bruised etc she didnt seem to show any consideration or care.
All my mates told me she was a slag and told me to leave it but I few days later i saw them together and they rubbed it in my face kissing and he was grinnig like a cheshire cat. I almost instantly turned back into my oldself beat the shit out of him. He was nearly in tears and begged me to get off him and it totally shocked her as she had never seen me like that.
Anyway the guy stayed with her 3 weeks and split up with her. So there is some justice. I saw her about a week ago and her friend told me she was sorry and wanted to go for a drink with me but i declined.
I know it might sound childish and maybe one day ill learn to be more mature. but for these reasons i love the song and every lyric in the song suits that part of my life.
"Yeah its what ive become that i fear the most, I never thought it could get so wrong" - I couldnt beleive i changed everything about myself for her and she walked all over me.
"Judging by the weight of my fucked up world, I think maybe I should take a step back from this I need to quit pushing, just let it roll" - I couldnt let them continue to walk all over me - afterall i didnt need to be that person for her anymore.
"Yeah, it's what you've become that I took today, You never thought I could be so strong, You can see there's a part of me that you cannot beat, And part of you will always remember me, When you look around and you are so alone" - She thought i wouldnt do a thing nor could i be so strong and she couldnt do a think about it.
"So ill play god know and blow you, blow you away" - reminds me of when i took control and fought out at her him and literally blew her away - as she want expecting it.
Sorry if that was a bit long but thats this songs meaning for me and it rocks because of it. I just wish crossfade had more songs like this.