yeah, i can see all the drug angles and stuff, but here's what this song means to me when i listen to it...
that brief moment of feeling worthy, feeling "pretty" enough for somebody else, feeling loved. you know it won't last long, it never does, because you always wind up being let down. no matter who it is, they always let you down.
maybe you struggle with ugliness in the form of depression, or maybe you feel physically ugly, but either way, you don't know what to do about it when you feel at your lowest. you feel so stuck and like everything is a dead-end and there's no way out.
...but then you find somebody who erases all of that and makes you feel fine, makes you feel "pretty" ... makes you feel okay. makes you feel like there's hope again. however, almost as soon as it's in your grasp, it's gone again.
this song is so bittersweet to me[the live version i have anyway], almost like it's being sung by someone who has seen into the future and is merely counting down the minutes until the inevitable happens, knowing nothing can be done to stop what's coming...
funny how after someone actually succeeds at making you feel beautiful, when they leave, you feel about a million times uglier than you did before, because after all...if someone who claimed to find you so beautiful could turn around and leave without a sound, what's that say about you? it must say you're even more of a piece of trash than you thought before...it must mean everything good they said was a lie.
...and you go back to feeling ugly, and you don't know what to do.
yeah, i can see all the drug angles and stuff, but here's what this song means to me when i listen to it...
that brief moment of feeling worthy, feeling "pretty" enough for somebody else, feeling loved. you know it won't last long, it never does, because you always wind up being let down. no matter who it is, they always let you down.
maybe you struggle with ugliness in the form of depression, or maybe you feel physically ugly, but either way, you don't know what to do about it when you feel at your lowest. you feel so stuck and like everything is a dead-end and there's no way out.
...but then you find somebody who erases all of that and makes you feel fine, makes you feel "pretty" ... makes you feel okay. makes you feel like there's hope again. however, almost as soon as it's in your grasp, it's gone again.
this song is so bittersweet to me[the live version i have anyway], almost like it's being sung by someone who has seen into the future and is merely counting down the minutes until the inevitable happens, knowing nothing can be done to stop what's coming...
funny how after someone actually succeeds at making you feel beautiful, when they leave, you feel about a million times uglier than you did before, because after all...if someone who claimed to find you so beautiful could turn around and leave without a sound, what's that say about you? it must say you're even more of a piece of trash than you thought before...it must mean everything good they said was a lie.
...and you go back to feeling ugly, and you don't know what to do.
@delial For the win!
@delial For the win!
Perfect understanding.
Perfect understanding.