ive probably listened to this song checks iTunes 43++ times in the past two days. this song = my life. its about a long distance thing, whether it be a relationship or a soon-to-be or just being away from the one you love. its so tough and you dont know until you go through it. you just keep thinking that life is a waste without this person and you cant stand being alone. you hadn't realized how difficult it would actually be, but now you see that without them, there is a stinging ache in your heart. i just love the line "i try to make you speak, but your beautiful, awkward silence falls on me" because pretty much, however much you actually get to talk to this person, its not enough. and if they aren't as eager & willing, its hard to kill yourself over this person when they are doing alright without you. or at least they have more patience. i thought i was a patient person, and ive been okay. but with each growing day, 11 months off and on is way to long to be away from the person you used to see everyday. music soothes things, but also can be a reinforcer that makes you feel worse. but sometimes you just need a good cry....
ive probably listened to this song checks iTunes 43++ times in the past two days. this song = my life. its about a long distance thing, whether it be a relationship or a soon-to-be or just being away from the one you love. its so tough and you dont know until you go through it. you just keep thinking that life is a waste without this person and you cant stand being alone. you hadn't realized how difficult it would actually be, but now you see that without them, there is a stinging ache in your heart. i just love the line "i try to make you speak, but your beautiful, awkward silence falls on me" because pretty much, however much you actually get to talk to this person, its not enough. and if they aren't as eager & willing, its hard to kill yourself over this person when they are doing alright without you. or at least they have more patience. i thought i was a patient person, and ive been okay. but with each growing day, 11 months off and on is way to long to be away from the person you used to see everyday. music soothes things, but also can be a reinforcer that makes you feel worse. but sometimes you just need a good cry....
he'll be back.. eventually. rawr.