perfectly describes that blank aimlessness you feel when you're completely alone in dealing with something that is totally weighing you down.
also perfectly describes those private moments where you try to deal with the things bothering you, on your own -- which almost always winds up being sessions of dwelling on the past and looking at old photos & mementos, wondering what the fuck you did wrong.
and finally, it ends where it begins. which, if you read into that, describes the feeling of loss in a nutshell; an unending circle of emotional double-takes, i guess you'd call it.
an emotional double-take: waking up and wanting to tell your best friend something...so you pick up the phone, press the first digit of his/her phone number, and then as you wake up fully, reality slaps you in the face as you remember that you can't call, because that person isn't in your life anymore.<p><b><i>Edited by delial on May 28 2008, at 01:57AM</i></b></p>
perfectly describes that blank aimlessness you feel when you're completely alone in dealing with something that is totally weighing you down.
also perfectly describes those private moments where you try to deal with the things bothering you, on your own -- which almost always winds up being sessions of dwelling on the past and looking at old photos & mementos, wondering what the fuck you did wrong.
and finally, it ends where it begins. which, if you read into that, describes the feeling of loss in a nutshell; an unending circle of emotional double-takes, i guess you'd call it.
an emotional double-take: waking up and wanting to tell your best friend something...so you pick up the phone, press the first digit of his/her phone number, and then as you wake up fully, reality slaps you in the face as you remember that you can't call, because that person isn't in your life anymore.<p><b><i>Edited by delial on May 28 2008, at 01:57AM</i></b></p>