I doubt that this is about stillbirth or miscarraige. I don't know what DeG say about it, but I think it is more likely to be about an abortion.
Why? because if you look closely at the lyrics, it does not make sense to be talking about stillbirth. I will try and explain as emotionlessly as I can, though I have faced personal experiences that do not make me face these situations with a naive face.
"I don't know that I only have a few months to live..."
This has to be talking about life inside the womb, because if it were still birth, the baby is not alive when it is outside the womb. These few months would then be relating to the "life inside the womb", would they not?
"since the time I waited for conciousness two months on I sensed something fast"
Two months on would mean two months on in the pregnancy, if this were about an abortion.
"I, incomplete, my body pierced through with hooked pain"
'I, incomplete'. A stillborn baby's body is complete, a fetus' body is not. It fits with the two months on in the pregnancy theory.
'Pierced through with hooked pain', would fit with the idea of an abortion, rather than a baby who has been still born (usually suffocated)
"mother's screaming voice, ringing in my ears, will not cease white coated adults scooped me up"
This definatly makes it sound more like a stillbirth, however, the "white coated adults scooping me up" could well apply to an abortion too.
"just as I was, in black vinyl I am wrapped, engulfed
while my conciousness is gradually fading,"
I am not sure about japanese culture, but most stillborn babys are not 'engulfed in black vinyl' after they have been born, they are more likely cuddled, clothed, and then placed in a coffin.
'Conciousness gradually fading'. A stillborn is completley dead when it is removed from the womb. A fetus, I regret to say, is often not.
'it's better that I, unloveable, died as I am'
A mother who loved her child would probably not wait the full-term and get an abortion a month or two on in the pregnancy. These lyrics imply that the baby is unloved, making an abortion seem more probable.
the cremation at the end sounds more likely pointing towards miscarraige and stillbirth though, as aborted fetuses are usually taken away to be used for scientifical studies.
the white-coated people are probably doctors and therefor in a big part ruling out the possibility of a miscarraige, which could have been the other conclusion.
so, the most complete conclusion drawn from these lyrics, I think, would be abortion.
I doubt that this is about stillbirth or miscarraige. I don't know what DeG say about it, but I think it is more likely to be about an abortion. Why? because if you look closely at the lyrics, it does not make sense to be talking about stillbirth. I will try and explain as emotionlessly as I can, though I have faced personal experiences that do not make me face these situations with a naive face.
"I don't know that I only have a few months to live..." This has to be talking about life inside the womb, because if it were still birth, the baby is not alive when it is outside the womb. These few months would then be relating to the "life inside the womb", would they not?
"since the time I waited for conciousness two months on I sensed something fast" Two months on would mean two months on in the pregnancy, if this were about an abortion.
"I, incomplete, my body pierced through with hooked pain" 'I, incomplete'. A stillborn baby's body is complete, a fetus' body is not. It fits with the two months on in the pregnancy theory. 'Pierced through with hooked pain', would fit with the idea of an abortion, rather than a baby who has been still born (usually suffocated)
"mother's screaming voice, ringing in my ears, will not cease white coated adults scooped me up" This definatly makes it sound more like a stillbirth, however, the "white coated adults scooping me up" could well apply to an abortion too.
"just as I was, in black vinyl I am wrapped, engulfed while my conciousness is gradually fading," I am not sure about japanese culture, but most stillborn babys are not 'engulfed in black vinyl' after they have been born, they are more likely cuddled, clothed, and then placed in a coffin. 'Conciousness gradually fading'. A stillborn is completley dead when it is removed from the womb. A fetus, I regret to say, is often not.
'it's better that I, unloveable, died as I am' A mother who loved her child would probably not wait the full-term and get an abortion a month or two on in the pregnancy. These lyrics imply that the baby is unloved, making an abortion seem more probable.
the cremation at the end sounds more likely pointing towards miscarraige and stillbirth though, as aborted fetuses are usually taken away to be used for scientifical studies.
the white-coated people are probably doctors and therefor in a big part ruling out the possibility of a miscarraige, which could have been the other conclusion. so, the most complete conclusion drawn from these lyrics, I think, would be abortion.
Oh yes, I also agree with FE.