Lyric discussion by Ciyaak Boy 

Cover art for Suffer lyrics by Smashing Pumpkins, The

i think your right polyethylenes about how the drug affects is feelings. Hes describing how he is not like everyone else, and in essence, maybe thru psychadelics(or not) he rediscovers himself and builds his own path as opposed to everyone else's since their's doesnt seem to be working for him.