"Big blank slate every day" means that he tries to forget and forgive what's in the past, but it's nagging him like a "push pin stuck in."
Saying "I fucked up now I just won again" kind of reflects what revenge is all about. Without a cause, revenge would be like fucking up. With a cause, it's like winning a match of wits.
BTW, is it lavalette? That's the name of a city in Wisconsin, but what does that have to do with anything? Because he mentions "I just won again" is it "[something] roulette?"
"Big blank slate every day" means that he tries to forget and forgive what's in the past, but it's nagging him like a "push pin stuck in."
Saying "I fucked up now I just won again" kind of reflects what revenge is all about. Without a cause, revenge would be like fucking up. With a cause, it's like winning a match of wits.
BTW, is it lavalette? That's the name of a city in Wisconsin, but what does that have to do with anything? Because he mentions "I just won again" is it "[something] roulette?"