When I feel like this, I don't give a damn about anything anymore.
After going through another sea of pain, fear and shame. I'm dry. Just angry. No one can help, and no one can hurt me. There's no hope, no dreams, no feelings. Save for anger and desire to 'be dead'.
I'm somehow untochable, numb. I feel I'm in control.
Suicide thougths are stimulating and kind of pleasant.
And since adrenaline is high I may be able to accomplish what would normally be much harder. Or at least make it to safety.
Happens from time to time. I always made it. But how long I can go on with this train of events?
When I feel like this, I don't give a damn about anything anymore. After going through another sea of pain, fear and shame. I'm dry. Just angry. No one can help, and no one can hurt me. There's no hope, no dreams, no feelings. Save for anger and desire to 'be dead'. I'm somehow untochable, numb. I feel I'm in control. Suicide thougths are stimulating and kind of pleasant. And since adrenaline is high I may be able to accomplish what would normally be much harder. Or at least make it to safety.
Happens from time to time. I always made it. But how long I can go on with this train of events?