to me i think it has to do with alocholism. idk i just see it like this:
"I hate myself more than I ever let on
I'm burnt out at 22
I have lived too fast
And I loved too much
And I'll die too young
But I chose this cup that I drank from
Knew what I was getting into
But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in
I'm ashamed of myself
And unspeakable sins that I committed and..."
ok he hates himself sooo much and soo many things are happening that he cant control! but doesnt wanna tell anybody. so he turns to liquor b.c hes depressed and feels like liquor is the only thing that will take the pain away.
he also goes on to say:
" It just hurts to be a man "
meaning hes tooo ashamed of himself to much b.c of the drinking. like hes nothing.
"If I wake up now I can be pure again"
meaning when he wakes up from the night before and the aolochol is gone out of his system. so hes pure.
and last:
"Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back
Towards the last train leaving town"
to me hes on the train tracks, drunk and upset. like hes on the tracks and wants out!
idk thats my take on it and you can think differently and ik it was too hard to understand probably but i tried.
to me i think it has to do with alocholism. idk i just see it like this:
"I hate myself more than I ever let on I'm burnt out at 22 I have lived too fast And I loved too much And I'll die too young But I chose this cup that I drank from Knew what I was getting into But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in I'm ashamed of myself And unspeakable sins that I committed and..."
ok he hates himself sooo much and soo many things are happening that he cant control! but doesnt wanna tell anybody. so he turns to liquor b.c hes depressed and feels like liquor is the only thing that will take the pain away.
he also goes on to say:
" It just hurts to be a man "
meaning hes tooo ashamed of himself to much b.c of the drinking. like hes nothing.
"If I wake up now I can be pure again"
meaning when he wakes up from the night before and the aolochol is gone out of his system. so hes pure.
and last:
"Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back Towards the last train leaving town"
to me hes on the train tracks, drunk and upset. like hes on the tracks and wants out!
idk thats my take on it and you can think differently and ik it was too hard to understand probably but i tried.