Elias is talking about how you have all these people around you, telling you what to do, and how to go about doing it. You try to abide by what they say, but you don't get anywhere, so you go your own way. But, even choosing your own path has it's problems, the "many many bad choices", and the "many many damn voices" in your brain, suggesting that you should have done something different, making you doubt yourself. But, through out this process, you start evolving and changing, hence "my world is bent, from this development, this development". You lose your sanity, are overwhelmed by everything, but in the end, at least you've learned something. Grown and changed from who and what you were at the beginning.
Elias is talking about how you have all these people around you, telling you what to do, and how to go about doing it. You try to abide by what they say, but you don't get anywhere, so you go your own way. But, even choosing your own path has it's problems, the "many many bad choices", and the "many many damn voices" in your brain, suggesting that you should have done something different, making you doubt yourself. But, through out this process, you start evolving and changing, hence "my world is bent, from this development, this development". You lose your sanity, are overwhelmed by everything, but in the end, at least you've learned something. Grown and changed from who and what you were at the beginning.