In the beginning, I think Nate is trying to say that he feels as if he no longer has his own identity or his own soul. he wants to fall away from society and to disappear from the public eye and the "sip of wine to sympathize while you're laughing" line, I think thats supposed to mean that he resorts to certain things in order to not let gossip and mockery get to him. When he says: "But on the inside,
I've lost the insight that just might be the truth..." I think he's trying to say that he has forgotten what is real and he's starting to believe all the gossip about him.
In the beginning, I think Nate is trying to say that he feels as if he no longer has his own identity or his own soul. he wants to fall away from society and to disappear from the public eye and the "sip of wine to sympathize while you're laughing" line, I think thats supposed to mean that he resorts to certain things in order to not let gossip and mockery get to him. When he says: "But on the inside, I've lost the insight that just might be the truth..." I think he's trying to say that he has forgotten what is real and he's starting to believe all the gossip about him.
but im bored so ill figure out the rest laterr