This song sounds frustrated to me. She's annoyed with herself because she wants to move forward but inner-torment and confusion is preventing her from doing anything productive. I think the verse about her boyfriend, and the chorus is just playing with the listener, - she's trying to convince herself that the one thing in her life that will keep her going is this guy. She thinks that if she's got him, then everything will follow.
This song sounds frustrated to me. She's annoyed with herself because she wants to move forward but inner-torment and confusion is preventing her from doing anything productive. I think the verse about her boyfriend, and the chorus is just playing with the listener, - she's trying to convince herself that the one thing in her life that will keep her going is this guy. She thinks that if she's got him, then everything will follow.