"need to believe in something real don't need this crutch because it just deceives" | He's only relying on himself, religion to him is a most personal thing, it's only between him and the power's that be. So he has to become his own Messiah, since nothing else can convince him. This skepticism of his is probably the hardest path to go by ("can this be can my soul be saved all alone I think too much"), so he call's it "doing the cross thing" - but that's what he has set out to do, even if it means being overwhelmed by a "search for love or war to restore disorder" by pulling down everything he thinks he already knows. This he takes to be god(or whatever might be out there)'s challenge for him: "to hold my head above water" in a sea of uncertainty. However he suffers, and this sea of uncertainty is slowly killing him "flooding in soaked through my lungs". So now he breathes uncertainty, let's it all out in this song. However, he doesn't let himself be led by "lip-service faithful" (as cylent watcher has so nicely put it), as he knows that it's unlikely that any god will let those be rewarded with anything. They are not worthy to judge his beliefs. Instead he has become his own jury, but hasn't figured it out yet so "it seems the jury is hung". He thinks there might come "judgement day" after all, so he doesn't simply dismiss god although he can't truly believe in him. [If I were God, I'd keep the best places in heaven for people like that; people who take religion seriously and search for the truth instead of just following what they are taught by some complacent suckers never questioning anything. But I guess there probably is no god at all and he's gone to all these troubles in vain.]">
The New Cult King Meanings & Lyrics Discussion by Lepra Messias | SongMeanings
"need to believe in something real don't need this crutch because it just deceives" | He's only relying on himself, religion to him is a most personal thing, it's only between him and the power's that be. So he has to become his own Messiah, since nothing else can convince him. This skepticism of his is probably the hardest path to go by ("can this be can my soul be saved all alone I think too much"), so he call's it "doing the cross thing" - but that's what he has set out to do, even if it means being overwhelmed by a "search for love or war to restore disorder" by pulling down everything he thinks he already knows. This he takes to be god(or whatever might be out there)'s challenge for him: "to hold my head above water" in a sea of uncertainty. However he suffers, and this sea of uncertainty is slowly killing him "flooding in soaked through my lungs". So now he breathes uncertainty, let's it all out in this song. However, he doesn't let himself be led by "lip-service faithful" (as cylent watcher has so nicely put it), as he knows that it's unlikely that any god will let those be rewarded with anything. They are not worthy to judge his beliefs. Instead he has become his own jury, but hasn't figured it out yet so "it seems the jury is hung". He thinks there might come "judgement day" after all, so he doesn't simply dismiss god although he can't truly believe in him. [If I were God, I'd keep the best places in heaven for people like that; people who take religion seriously and search for the truth instead of just following what they are taught by some complacent suckers never questioning anything. But I guess there probably is no god at all and he's gone to all these troubles in vain.]" />
I think the line "it's such a joke every new walk thru life just inherits Christ" refers both to a) each new generation of Xtians, and b) to the New-Age religions and Satanisms which have borrowed a lot from Christianity (or simply reverse it), instead of coming up with something original. Hence his words "you should have to prove something first": Instead of claiming to correct where 'the others' went wrong in following god, you should base your beliefs on proofs - not just come up with a new interpretation of something which hasn't been proven in the first place (the so-called 'Word of God'). People who just take it for a given that god exists (even if they defy the traditional views of him) or that there is some 'old but lost wisdom' about the one true religion (basically what the neo-pagans believe) - those people he calls "godfiend"s. He pleads that in order to find the truth (a flawless system of belief) you first and foremost have to question everything, and proof everything which is supposed to be a part of true religion. That's why he goes: "Can't you see why I'm still wondering if there is a dog" - it's like: Heck, I don't even know that dog's for real and not some illusion. How then am I supposed to believe in some fuckin' scriptures and metaphysical stories you present me with, or even the revelation that has been given to you by a freakin' angel/demon/visionary dream at your bedside last night? ==> "need to believe in something real don't need this crutch because it just deceives" | He's only relying on himself, religion to him is a most personal thing, it's only between him and the power's that be. So he has to become his own Messiah, since nothing else can convince him. This skepticism of his is probably the hardest path to go by ("can this be can my soul be saved all alone I think too much"), so he call's it "doing the cross thing" - but that's what he has set out to do, even if it means being overwhelmed by a "search for love or war to restore disorder" by pulling down everything he thinks he already knows. This he takes to be god(or whatever might be out there)'s challenge for him: "to hold my head above water" in a sea of uncertainty. However he suffers, and this sea of uncertainty is slowly killing him "flooding in soaked through my lungs". So now he breathes uncertainty, let's it all out in this song. However, he doesn't let himself be led by "lip-service faithful" (as cylent watcher has so nicely put it), as he knows that it's unlikely that any god will let those be rewarded with anything. They are not worthy to judge his beliefs. Instead he has become his own jury, but hasn't figured it out yet so "it seems the jury is hung". He thinks there might come "judgement day" after all, so he doesn't simply dismiss god although he can't truly believe in him. [If I were God, I'd keep the best places in heaven for people like that; people who take religion seriously and search for the truth instead of just following what they are taught by some complacent suckers never questioning anything. But I guess there probably is no god at all and he's gone to all these troubles in vain.]
I think the line "it's such a joke every new walk thru life just inherits Christ" refers both to a) each new generation of Xtians, and b) to the New-Age religions and Satanisms which have borrowed a lot from Christianity (or simply reverse it), instead of coming up with something original. Hence his words "you should have to prove something first": Instead of claiming to correct where 'the others' went wrong in following god, you should base your beliefs on proofs - not just come up with a new interpretation of something which hasn't been proven in the first place (the so-called 'Word of God'). People who just take it for a given that god exists (even if they defy the traditional views of him) or that there is some 'old but lost wisdom' about the one true religion (basically what the neo-pagans believe) - those people he calls "godfiend"s. He pleads that in order to find the truth (a flawless system of belief) you first and foremost have to question everything, and proof everything which is supposed to be a part of true religion. That's why he goes: "Can't you see why I'm still wondering if there is a dog" - it's like: Heck, I don't even know that dog's for real and not some illusion. How then am I supposed to believe in some fuckin' scriptures and metaphysical stories you present me with, or even the revelation that has been given to you by a freakin' angel/demon/visionary dream at your bedside last night? ==> "need to believe in something real don't need this crutch because it just deceives" | He's only relying on himself, religion to him is a most personal thing, it's only between him and the power's that be. So he has to become his own Messiah, since nothing else can convince him. This skepticism of his is probably the hardest path to go by ("can this be can my soul be saved all alone I think too much"), so he call's it "doing the cross thing" - but that's what he has set out to do, even if it means being overwhelmed by a "search for love or war to restore disorder" by pulling down everything he thinks he already knows. This he takes to be god(or whatever might be out there)'s challenge for him: "to hold my head above water" in a sea of uncertainty. However he suffers, and this sea of uncertainty is slowly killing him "flooding in soaked through my lungs". So now he breathes uncertainty, let's it all out in this song. However, he doesn't let himself be led by "lip-service faithful" (as cylent watcher has so nicely put it), as he knows that it's unlikely that any god will let those be rewarded with anything. They are not worthy to judge his beliefs. Instead he has become his own jury, but hasn't figured it out yet so "it seems the jury is hung". He thinks there might come "judgement day" after all, so he doesn't simply dismiss god although he can't truly believe in him. [If I were God, I'd keep the best places in heaven for people like that; people who take religion seriously and search for the truth instead of just following what they are taught by some complacent suckers never questioning anything. But I guess there probably is no god at all and he's gone to all these troubles in vain.]