So I Finally Decided to Give Myself a Reason

i don't think it's about his ex-girlfriend either. his whole idea of creating "i can make a mes.." was to start completely new. he even said “I wanted to go back to the time when music was the only thing that mattered, not all of the other messy things that come with it” on his website. i don't think that holding on to ex-girlfriends is starting new. so, yeah