he's been pretending to be this other person for so long that nobody knows who he really is. he hurts himself because he wants people to know how fucked up he really is. but at the same time, he wants to go back to being who they expect him to be. he wants to be on the pedestal, but he knows it'll kill him if he does. he doesn't know if he can fix everything, or if he's just too deep in his own shit to ever get better again.
he's been pretending to be this other person for so long that nobody knows who he really is. he hurts himself because he wants people to know how fucked up he really is. but at the same time, he wants to go back to being who they expect him to be. he wants to be on the pedestal, but he knows it'll kill him if he does. he doesn't know if he can fix everything, or if he's just too deep in his own shit to ever get better again.