I think it's about him not being sure about his feelings towards his dad and suddenly realizing his relationship to him wasn't too great. I think he just doesn't like not having his father around, even though he might not have been fond of him while he was alive.
He's deciding that he does love his father a lot and will miss him a lot, but the things that never went well in his life are still lingering in his mind.
I think it's about him not being sure about his feelings towards his dad and suddenly realizing his relationship to him wasn't too great. I think he just doesn't like not having his father around, even though he might not have been fond of him while he was alive.
He's deciding that he does love his father a lot and will miss him a lot, but the things that never went well in his life are still lingering in his mind.