I think this song means that shes really down on herself, like she really doesnt like herself, and thats what she could mean by "i'm not the one you want". But by "Wont somebody please write a message to god", she could mean wont somebody please tell god to make my life worth living because otherwise im going to end it.
I think this song means that shes really down on herself, like she really doesnt like herself, and thats what she could mean by "i'm not the one you want". But by "Wont somebody please write a message to god", she could mean wont somebody please tell god to make my life worth living because otherwise im going to end it.