I'll say what I think it means. I think its sayin that he realizes (when he's writin it down for "someone to relate") that he doesn't belong. That its his faulty self (he's blaming himself) that makes him not belong and the others (whom he blamed before) aren't to blame.
I'll say what I think it means. I think its sayin that he realizes (when he's writin it down for "someone to relate") that he doesn't belong. That its his faulty self (he's blaming himself) that makes him not belong and the others (whom he blamed before) aren't to blame.