I really connected with this song and band. One of my friends introduced me to this song to tell me what he used to feel when I had boyfriends who dictated everything I did by dragging me down and making me think I wasn't worth thier time. He was like the one singing, he wanted to help but I couldn't see that. The first guy who abused me left a hole in me that only someone who could control me and make me do right could fill. The payment was the boyfriends' suffering. To me they were the ones paying because I was so stupid and needed them to tell me everything which must take a toll on them. It was all about keeping upi the apperance of perfection, which would have killed me if someone hadn't intervened and made me see it.
I really connected with this song and band. One of my friends introduced me to this song to tell me what he used to feel when I had boyfriends who dictated everything I did by dragging me down and making me think I wasn't worth thier time. He was like the one singing, he wanted to help but I couldn't see that. The first guy who abused me left a hole in me that only someone who could control me and make me do right could fill. The payment was the boyfriends' suffering. To me they were the ones paying because I was so stupid and needed them to tell me everything which must take a toll on them. It was all about keeping upi the apperance of perfection, which would have killed me if someone hadn't intervened and made me see it.