I think the narrator wants her partner to be some one else, overall someone loyal cos inside she's scared he'll leave her. So she tries to control him, but when he does change, he irritates her and she wants him to keep on his mean side, maybe so that he can be more interesting.
I think the narrator wants her partner to be some one else, overall someone loyal cos inside she's scared he'll leave her. So she tries to control him, but when he does change, he irritates her and she wants him to keep on his mean side, maybe so that he can be more interesting.