I think it has a little to do with both bulimia AND speaking her mind. A friend of mine who was a counselor for years told me that girls with eating disorders developed them as a way to feel in control of their lives.
"Close my mouth
Was I born to accommodate
I'm so good at playing dead
Words just don't seem to come out"
It seems like she is expected to behave and mind her tongue by her father, but she wants to speak her mind. Instead she eats sweet things and spits them back up ("stomachache... food just doesn't seem to work out") to deal with her problems.
I also think "how many doctors will it take before I disintegrate" is being critical of how the medical establishment treats cases of eating disorders instead of addressing the ways that societal expectations placed on girls (and boys) lead to the disorders in the first place.
I think it has a little to do with both bulimia AND speaking her mind. A friend of mine who was a counselor for years told me that girls with eating disorders developed them as a way to feel in control of their lives.
"Close my mouth Was I born to accommodate I'm so good at playing dead Words just don't seem to come out" It seems like she is expected to behave and mind her tongue by her father, but she wants to speak her mind. Instead she eats sweet things and spits them back up ("stomachache... food just doesn't seem to work out") to deal with her problems.
I also think "how many doctors will it take before I disintegrate" is being critical of how the medical establishment treats cases of eating disorders instead of addressing the ways that societal expectations placed on girls (and boys) lead to the disorders in the first place.