Galapogos

Remember how Billy had an awful childhood, full of abandonment and resentment? (listen to "Disarm") I think this refers back to those feelings. "ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child softly stolen under our blanket skies" Now he's an adult and in a relationship. He still reverts back to his childhood feelings of abandonment even though he is presented with love. He needs to keep his resentment for others, society, the world, and love because its a part of who he is. Its like his security blanket. It is so overwhelming that its like his security sky. "and rescue me from me, and all that i believe" He wants his lover to rescue him from the before mentioned beliefs. "i won't deny the pain i won't deny the change and should i fall from grace here with you will you leave me too?" His past still hurts and he won't deny the pain of that. In contrast, he won't deny the change he feels falling in love with this person. Should he completely revert back to his state of angst and resentment, should he fall out of love, will this person leave him? Will you leave me, just like everyone does? "carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree and hold me for goodbyes-and whispered lullabyes and tell me i am still the man i'm supposed to be" Make some kind of commitment to me, show me you love me. All the trappings of love, like holding me and not wanting to say goodbye and whispering goodnight. Reassure me that I'm a good person...I've never believed it before...but I just might believe you. "too late to turn back now, i'm running out of sound and i am changing, changing and if we died right now, this fool you love somehow is here with you" You've changed me so much that I can't revert back to the child I used to be. I'm running out of anger and hatred. Love is changing me. If we were to die right now, I would be with you. I know you're not leaving, and I, in return could not leave you.