Like I fell, you can tell.
*fell like he was careless (tripped) an ended up going down before he knew what happened (falling, drugs). now he has to start at the bottom (the ground up) or the begining again
By the way I move into my head.
*moving into his head as he now uses he fully functioning, unintoxicated brain to make decisions. using the present tense "move" to signify time. slowly moving and piecing back together whats been packed away and ignored under all of those drugs
Do you think that it's me?
*"do you think that its the real me?"
Or it's not me I don't even care.
I'm alive.
*or since hes changed hes not the same person he used to be or has come to beleive he is. it doesnt matter because hes clean like he knows he should be. he is alive instead of wasting away on drugs.
I swear I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
I feel pain.
*you take drugs to make everything numb and distorted, well now that hes clean he can finally feel the sharp realities of life and the pain that he has been avoiding. maybe even the pain of withdrawal
when he says "look at me know, im a fake" its because hes changed now that hes sober and maybe he thinks being sober is just not him. Being sober is like faking who HE thinks he really is. also sounds like hes doing it for someone else. "i swear im the cleanest ive ever been" and when he says "look at me now" as if hes addressing someone to show how hard it is to go through with but hes doing it anyway.
i thought it was about him quiting the drugs.
Like I fell, you can tell. *fell like he was careless (tripped) an ended up going down before he knew what happened (falling, drugs). now he has to start at the bottom (the ground up) or the begining again
By the way I move into my head. *moving into his head as he now uses he fully functioning, unintoxicated brain to make decisions. using the present tense "move" to signify time. slowly moving and piecing back together whats been packed away and ignored under all of those drugs
Do you think that it's me? *"do you think that its the real me?"
Or it's not me I don't even care. I'm alive. *or since hes changed hes not the same person he used to be or has come to beleive he is. it doesnt matter because hes clean like he knows he should be. he is alive instead of wasting away on drugs.
I swear I'm the cleanest I have ever been. I feel pain. *you take drugs to make everything numb and distorted, well now that hes clean he can finally feel the sharp realities of life and the pain that he has been avoiding. maybe even the pain of withdrawal
when he says "look at me know, im a fake" its because hes changed now that hes sober and maybe he thinks being sober is just not him. Being sober is like faking who HE thinks he really is. also sounds like hes doing it for someone else. "i swear im the cleanest ive ever been" and when he says "look at me now" as if hes addressing someone to show how hard it is to go through with but hes doing it anyway.