I think he's trying to deal with being attracted to someone who, in painfully obvious ways, is different from yourself. He goes further and likens the process of accepting love from "unworthies" to the bargain we enter into when incarnating: It seems like an unlikely proposition that we would accept life on Earth with the death, destruction, disappointment, grief as a "learning experience"--a "chemistry class," but we do--which itself has to say something.
I think he's trying to deal with being attracted to someone who, in painfully obvious ways, is different from yourself. He goes further and likens the process of accepting love from "unworthies" to the bargain we enter into when incarnating: It seems like an unlikely proposition that we would accept life on Earth with the death, destruction, disappointment, grief as a "learning experience"--a "chemistry class," but we do--which itself has to say something.