The lyrics describes a person who feels that they are true to their image. Whatever you see on the outside is what you see on the inside for him/her for they are transparent. However there is that haunting feeling that he/she doesn't know themselves even though they feel transparent and makes him/her feel inadequate because no one really relates to them. That's why he/she sounds "fucking mad." Its because no one understands that for the narrator looking at the autumn shade is looking at herself/himself.
The lyrics describes a person who feels that they are true to their image. Whatever you see on the outside is what you see on the inside for him/her for they are transparent. However there is that haunting feeling that he/she doesn't know themselves even though they feel transparent and makes him/her feel inadequate because no one really relates to them. That's why he/she sounds "fucking mad." Its because no one understands that for the narrator looking at the autumn shade is looking at herself/himself.