I think that this works together with part ii, basically, this is his doubting, trying to convince himself to do it in a fit of depression, then part ii kicks in and its the actual action of suicide. Like the synthesizers too.
I think that this works together with part ii, basically, this is his doubting, trying to convince himself to do it in a fit of depression, then part ii kicks in and its the actual action of suicide. Like the synthesizers too.