I think that he wants to leave his families world of religion behind, while still loving them as a family. He says that his door is still open, and he wants care from them to cover him, but he wants to be away from religion, even though deep down he knows he should be more religious.
I think that he wants to leave his families world of religion behind, while still loving them as a family. He says that his door is still open, and he wants care from them to cover him, but he wants to be away from religion, even though deep down he knows he should be more religious.