"Wish I was to dead to care/if indeed I cared at all" i think that means that he wished that he was dead to all feelings and emotions. i think this song is about relationships with others, and about being hurt by others. finding someone to blame for things gone wrong. things go well in friendships and then turn bad, and at that point all you have is memories to look back on, and when this happens over and over you just wish you were dead to feeling anything for anyone, because in the end you see yourself getting hurt.
"Wish I was to dead to care/if indeed I cared at all" i think that means that he wished that he was dead to all feelings and emotions. i think this song is about relationships with others, and about being hurt by others. finding someone to blame for things gone wrong. things go well in friendships and then turn bad, and at that point all you have is memories to look back on, and when this happens over and over you just wish you were dead to feeling anything for anyone, because in the end you see yourself getting hurt.