This is about a tormented soul that has a "face", a voice, an evil manevolent conscience, that has total autotomy from this person. He has no control over it{yet it is in him and a part of him and he can't extricate himself from it} and it pursues him/her , without mercy or compassion to drive home every mistake, foult, sin and failing that this person shows or does. It is a very POWERFUL voice that is internalized {underneath the skin}, and is not at all concerned with this person's wellbeing, but acts to be a PROSECUTING LAWYER, JUDGE & EXECUTIONER/PUNISHER. It accuses him, it mocks him and laughs at him/her for failing, for falling , For Not Measuring up{I CAN'T ADD UP TO WHAT YOU CAN} It's like the DEVIL HIMSELF designed them as his little imps, henchmen do do his dirty work. It has gotton to the point that it has taken over his mind and though he hates it{I kow what i can't stand} but keeps him on constant edge{why am i so uptight today} like a shell-shocked battle worn soldier that has been so rentlessly bombarded, that even a small "shot" makes him jump in fear, he's trying to swim,(just suvive this attack), but he's sunk because its there ready again beneath the skin to get him. And its so pervasive its all he's got its his new reality/exhistance{ paronias all i got left} and its pushing into the realm of insanity{parania:its in here {my mind}and it's out to get me} and its a wirlwind in his head {a force that is powerful and is uncontrollable blowing him away} . But get this it's worse when the sun goes down.{ decrease the light, increase the voice/face } i can imagine someone laying on there on the bed alone and in the dark and the face attacks and keeps attacking, The light could represent his ablility to see the truth beyond the evil face's voice, or it could mean the light{Goodness, God, the Truth about his/her true value} has abandonded him{the sun goes down I feel the light betray me}. He may feel God has abandoned him. There is no escape the face inside the skin. I think people get this in there heads by heaping abuse of some authority, some evil parent, or caretaker that doesn't really care for some young child, but because they are god-like, they can set impossible standards and rules out to the minutia and then come down hard {i mean abusively hard physically verbally and emotionally} on this child who can never live up to it. In fact it is not designed to let the person succeed , but to fail. It might have happenened so early that the person can't remember how they got that way or what triggered it today{I don't know what stressed me first or how the pressure's fed} but there plenty of condeming voices in this world that can support this "Voice" that that's all this tormented soul hears feels and experiences. It is like the voice of that evil parent internalized now , still no escape. For me it was my Ass-hole father, though dead he lives with-in. I rebel but it pursues. I can't even see God as a Father because of this "face inside it's right beneath my skin."
' a voice that is more than a conscience, but is a split and independently atonomous entity{alter personality?}, that relentlessly pursues his host to show, accuse, enumerate, every fault, mistake, sin, and is a legalist , a judge and and punisher. He has no control over it, he can't escape. The face is not concerned with the wellbeing of the person, but is ruthless in its goal, to torment this soul with every mistake...and it is stressing him so much he wants to sleep just to escape, but even that will not give relief...infact its gotten to the point that this tormented soul is crossing over to insanity, he feels constantly under tension that its a whirlwind , a black spinning vortex that spins him/her mind around
This is about a tormented soul that has a "face", a voice, an evil manevolent conscience, that has total autotomy from this person. He has no control over it{yet it is in him and a part of him and he can't extricate himself from it} and it pursues him/her , without mercy or compassion to drive home every mistake, foult, sin and failing that this person shows or does. It is a very POWERFUL voice that is internalized {underneath the skin}, and is not at all concerned with this person's wellbeing, but acts to be a PROSECUTING LAWYER, JUDGE & EXECUTIONER/PUNISHER. It accuses him, it mocks him and laughs at him/her for failing, for falling , For Not Measuring up{I CAN'T ADD UP TO WHAT YOU CAN} It's like the DEVIL HIMSELF designed them as his little imps, henchmen do do his dirty work. It has gotton to the point that it has taken over his mind and though he hates it{I kow what i can't stand} but keeps him on constant edge{why am i so uptight today} like a shell-shocked battle worn soldier that has been so rentlessly bombarded, that even a small "shot" makes him jump in fear, he's trying to swim,(just suvive this attack), but he's sunk because its there ready again beneath the skin to get him. And its so pervasive its all he's got its his new reality/exhistance{ paronias all i got left} and its pushing into the realm of insanity{parania:its in here {my mind}and it's out to get me} and its a wirlwind in his head {a force that is powerful and is uncontrollable blowing him away} . But get this it's worse when the sun goes down.{ decrease the light, increase the voice/face } i can imagine someone laying on there on the bed alone and in the dark and the face attacks and keeps attacking, The light could represent his ablility to see the truth beyond the evil face's voice, or it could mean the light{Goodness, God, the Truth about his/her true value} has abandonded him{the sun goes down I feel the light betray me}. He may feel God has abandoned him. There is no escape the face inside the skin. I think people get this in there heads by heaping abuse of some authority, some evil parent, or caretaker that doesn't really care for some young child, but because they are god-like, they can set impossible standards and rules out to the minutia and then come down hard {i mean abusively hard physically verbally and emotionally} on this child who can never live up to it. In fact it is not designed to let the person succeed , but to fail. It might have happenened so early that the person can't remember how they got that way or what triggered it today{I don't know what stressed me first or how the pressure's fed} but there plenty of condeming voices in this world that can support this "Voice" that that's all this tormented soul hears feels and experiences. It is like the voice of that evil parent internalized now , still no escape. For me it was my Ass-hole father, though dead he lives with-in. I rebel but it pursues. I can't even see God as a Father because of this "face inside it's right beneath my skin."
' a voice that is more than a conscience, but is a split and independently atonomous entity{alter personality?}, that relentlessly pursues his host to show, accuse, enumerate, every fault, mistake, sin, and is a legalist , a judge and and punisher. He has no control over it, he can't escape. The face is not concerned with the wellbeing of the person, but is ruthless in its goal, to torment this soul with every mistake...and it is stressing him so much he wants to sleep just to escape, but even that will not give relief...infact its gotten to the point that this tormented soul is crossing over to insanity, he feels constantly under tension that its a whirlwind , a black spinning vortex that spins him/her mind around