They've got what they reckon the meaning is on their website (http://www.geocities.com/haetus_web), but they do themsleves a disservice, and my belief is that it is a lot more subtle:
The first verse seems to be talking about the writer's tendency to "hold the world up to (his) face". He knows that all it will lead to is a feeling of useless, impotent melancholia, yet cannot prevent himself from thinking the same thoughts over and over again.
Hence, he utilises the only means he knows to drown his melancholia. But he recognises the ridiculous spiral that he is on, and the second verse seems to me be his personal lament at his state, and his inability to escape.
They've got what they reckon the meaning is on their website (http://www.geocities.com/haetus_web), but they do themsleves a disservice, and my belief is that it is a lot more subtle:
The first verse seems to be talking about the writer's tendency to "hold the world up to (his) face". He knows that all it will lead to is a feeling of useless, impotent melancholia, yet cannot prevent himself from thinking the same thoughts over and over again.
Hence, he utilises the only means he knows to drown his melancholia. But he recognises the ridiculous spiral that he is on, and the second verse seems to me be his personal lament at his state, and his inability to escape.