This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
This is the song I've been singing my whole life
I've been waiting like a knife
To cut open your heart
And bleed my soul to you
I did it all for you
You and you and you and you
This is the sound I've been making my whole life
I've been waiting for this night
To clear up all the talk
Althought I'm selfish to a fault
Is it selfish it's you I want
You I did it all for you
This love will stand as long as you
There's really no excuse
I did it all for you
These are the tears I've been crying my whole life
Like an ocean of desire
I'm reaching thru the noise
Across the dusk of time
Within the lilting lies
I am singing out to you
I've been waiting like a knife
To cut open your heart
And bleed my soul to you
I did it all for you
You and you and you and you
This is the sound I've been making my whole life
I've been waiting for this night
To clear up all the talk
Althought I'm selfish to a fault
Is it selfish it's you I want
You I did it all for you
This love will stand as long as you
There's really no excuse
I did it all for you
These are the tears I've been crying my whole life
Like an ocean of desire
I'm reaching thru the noise
Across the dusk of time
Within the lilting lies
I am singing out to you
Lyrics submitted by rockstar001, edited by Mellow_Harsher
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This song is awesome to me, and has a great deal of profound intellectual depth. My interpretation of it is a powerful message in the illusion of unseen metals in crude oil by-products having a spiritual voice. The tree is a metaphor to describing the living organisms, (including people) worldwide, affected by these metals. Living organisms are the branches of this tree, and Mercury is singing to us about the destructive nature of what is happening to us. The saddest irony is that the branches are not capable of hearing the message through the "Noise" that surrounds them. "Within the lilting lies" describes the corrupted nature of deceptive practices with which we've been intoxicated by heavy metals. "This love will stand as long as you" says to me that Mercury, apologetically, intends to kill us. Psychotic! Yes, but after all, it's not really Mercury's fault that our entire planet is dying from the pollutions of this tree, is it? Mercury has no power over its own effects on us when we continue to abuse its substance. Mercury would like it if we could understand the message, and change our ways. Death is merely the natural outcome of the continued abuse of a substance's properties. It's merely to the extent, when we unintentionally make machines our God, that their pollutions have the power to subjugate us to our own demise.
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To me it sounds like the singer is saying he loves his girl despite her faults...that she's the one for him and he's trying to show that but she's not "cooperating"
Althought I'm selfish to a fault Is it selfish it's you I want
I understand this line to a point that i remember old relationships. very sad but also so very true. Is it selfish to want a person for yourself and no one else. I think we all have felt this in our lifetime.
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